Meeting and Departing
2022-04-10金思颖
Walking out of the cafe shop, she turned around to him and said, haltingly, "I'vegottago."
"Yeah.Listen,did I say something wrong?"He was deeply concerned about her answer.
"No."These words he said flashed through her mind, alive, charming, both funny and wise.
"No?"He could not help asking again.
"No, no."She denied, with a deep sense of loss.
"Sure? "He pursued,once again,gazing at her face.
"It was...",shaking her head slowly from side to side, avoid looking into his blue eyes--the most captivating eyes she'd ever seen,"It was so right,it cares me.That's all.Just..."and she could say no more.
"You know,I was thinking,"He bites his lip and could not look at her at all now,his gaze moving from side to side, then down to the floor, then up again to distant points behind her."I don't want you to be my doctor.I don't want you to examine me and..."
"Why?"
"Because I like you so much."He hesitated for a second before responding.
Then he looked at her and smiled,and her heart stopped.It just stopped beating,then lurched, pounding, fluttering about like a baby bird trying to fly. For the first time in her life having that feeling, just like the world was moving all around her, all beneath her, all inside her, and she was floating. She had something she wanted to tell him,"That you like me is an unexpected joy, and that you don't like me is the fate of all things as usual. But when I heard you say 'I like you so much', my world blossomed in a flash."
"And I...I don't want to examine you." Her heart was racing when his eyes were closing and his face was coming toward her.
"You don't?Why not?"He looked at her with those eyes, and they brightened up again,and she knew she was attracted to him,but she was afraid to show her love.
"Because I like you so much." She finally worked up the nerve to tell the man what kind of feeling she had for him and how his words melted her heart like the sun melts butter.
They laughed together,treating heartfelt words like only a joke.
"Oh,boy.Okay."
"NowIgotta go,so-"
"Yep,understood."
They didn't talk a lot at the gate of the coffee shop.Sometimes silence is better than a thousand words. The heartbreaking departure always happens in a fraction of a moment.But seriously we really didn't want to see that moment coming.
"Allright.Allright."
"Fair enough.Seeyou."
"Bye."She turned on her heel and left.
"Bye-bye."He saw her off for a moment,and back away.
He made a step or two towards but his thoughts were still deep into her.The woman was so intriguing that he couldn't drag himself away. He was loath to part with her and turned with expectations,but only to have the sight of her back.The man turned away again with his head falling.
However,when she turned and opened her mouth to speak but close.“Joe,I love you!”but when she saw Joe was heading away,she pursed her lips firmly and swallowed her words.Her face dimmed and her head lowered,she cursed herself,"It is only my wishful love."
The sight of him,the thought of him still sent her heart humming.She didn't chase after him anymore,then walked away again."I met thousands of people,but in the end only you,are with me. Love, is not an accident.To like someone is to run wild,but to love someone is to restrain.True love is to let go when you can't love."She thought.
By coincidence, they missed again and again.His image is a sail and her eyes are rivers.How many times she wanted to urge him to stay but couldn't.In the end, she turned and walked off into the corner. Tears upon parting add new waves to the long river of memory wishes for departure are prelude to another meeting.
"A long way of life makes us meet and part.The union is ephemeral,but the separation is long. May our hearts be close together and inseparable forever."
作者簡介
金思颖(2002.10—),女,汉族,浙江温州人,本科,学生,研究方向:英语(师范)。