勇往直前

Theres a reason behind every persons actions. Usually， when a person acts badly， it is because she has a problem or just simply because she is holding on to her past. Based on my personal experience， I realized that the reason behind the change of my perspective on the importance of education is my disappointment of not making the top ten in middle school. I discovered that keeping that inside stopped me from doing my best in high school and in order to be able to do better， I just had to relinquish it.

In the year 2004， my family decided to migrate to the United States. Therefore， I had to leave the life I was accustomed to behind. I left my friends and most importantly， I left the chance of graduating elementary school as a valedictorian. When I came to Guam， I started attending Benavente Middle School as a sixth grader. However， because I came late， I only had to be a sixth grader for four months.

Ive always done really well in school and I did not want moving to a different country to stop me from performing my best. When I was in middle school， I made sure that my education was my first priority. I did all my work， turned things in on time， as well as studied for tests and quizzes. I even got in the National Junior Honor Society注. I was confident that finally， I would be able to go on stage and be part of the top ten. However， despite my hard work， I found out that I could not be on it because I did not attend some specific lessons for the whole three years. Hearing this， I felt like all my hard work went to waste.

When I started going to high school， I still kept that disappointment inside. I still could not believe that I worked so hard on something but my hard work did not pay off. In freshman year， I got tired of trying. I told myself not to try anymore. I was not being myself and I did not care about school. Instead， I cared about how to have fun. I was contented on passing and did not try to get excellent grades. When I got my report card， my grades were just average. I did not even want to show it to my parents because I knew they would be disappointed. Things stayed the same in sophomore year. I still did not care about my grades because of the disappointment I felt in middle school.

Finally， in junior year， I decided to let things go and not dwell on the past. Why not let things go and move on now that I still had time to correct my mistakes？ I started putting more time and effort into my studies and I saw improvement in my grades day by day. Not only was I doing better in school， I also felt a lot better not thinking about the unhappy past anymore. If only I did it earlier， then maybe I would have done better in school in freshman and sophomore year. In the last year， I was so proud of my grades and was excited to show them to my parents. I became more interested in school. I realize that Im so much happier that I let things go. I enjoy the fact that Im doing so well in school and Im trying my best.

As they always say， everyone makes mistakes. The only difference is that some people learn from them while others repeat them. Theres always a reason why a person starts acting in such a certain way and sometimes all she has to do is let things go. My experience taught me that valuable lesson. It is never good holding on to things and in order to move forward， you need to let go of the past.

每个人行为的背后总会有一个原因。通常，一个人表现不好，可能是因为她有困难，又或者仅仅是因为她还沉浸在过去。从自身经历中，我意识到自己之所以改变了对教育重要性的看法，是因为我对于自己没能在读初中时拿到前十名感到很失望。我发现，由于一直把这件事放在心上，我难以在高中全力以赴。为了做得更好，我必须放下它。

2004年，家人决定移民到美国，我不得不离开我所熟悉的生活。我得和朋友们分开，而最为重要的是，我失去了在毕业典礼上作为代表致告别词的机会。来到关岛后，我开始作为一名六年级生在贝纳文特中学学习。然而，因为我来得晚，我只在那个班学习了四个月。

之前我在学校的表现一直都很不错，我并不想因为移民到另一个国家就让我不再做到最好。当我还是初中生的时候，我确保我的学业放在第一位。我完成了所有作业、按时上交，并且为各种考试和小测验努力学习。我甚至还成为了国家初中荣誉生会的成员。我深信，我最终能站在台上成为前十名中的一员。可尽管我非常努力，我发现我都无法被评选为优秀学生，因为有些特定的课程我未学满三年。得知此事后，我感觉自己的全部努力都付之东流了。

上了高中以后，我的内心依旧十分沮丧。我实在难以相信自己付出了这么多却得不到回报。在高一的时候，我懒得继续努力了，我也告诉自己无需再努力学习了。我不再做自己，也不关心学习。相反，我关心的是如何玩得开心。我不再努力争取更优秀的成绩，光及格我就心满意足了。我拿到成绩单时，得知自己的成绩仅是平均水平。我甚至不想把我的成績单拿给父母看，因为我知道他们一定会失望。到高二时，情况还是没有什么改善。由于初中时留在心里的那股沮丧感，我对自己的成绩依旧毫不在意。

终于，到了高三，我决心放下过去，不再继续沉湎其中了。既然我还有时间来纠正自己的错误，为何不放下过去、大步向前呢？我开始投入更多的时间和努力到学习当中，成绩也渐渐有所进步。不仅我在学校表现得越来越好，不再想着过去不愉快的事也让我感觉好多了。要是我能够早点觉悟，或许我在高一和高二时就可以表现得更好。最后一年，我为自己取得的成绩感到骄傲，我也常怀着激动的心情给父母看成绩单。我对学校生活更感兴趣了。坦然释怀之后，我感觉自己比以前开心了许多。我很享受自己在学校表现出色并且继续全力以赴的过程！

人们常说，每个人都会犯错。唯一不同的是，有的人会从中吸取教训，而有的人却重蹈覆辙。一个人如何处事，背后总有她的原因。有时候，她能做的就只有放下。我的经历给我上了宝贵的一课。对以前发生的事耿耿于怀，总归是不好的。想要继续前进，你必须放下过去。

注：即美国国家初中荣誉生会，为初中阶段的学生所设立，意在表彰在学业成绩、领导才能、社区服务及道德品质均有突出表现的初中生。