妈妈从没告诉你的那些事

祝莉丽

1. You made her cry ... a lot. She cried when she found out she was pregnant. She cried as she gave birth to you. She cried when she first held you. She cried with happiness. She cried with fear. She cried with worry. She cried because she feels so deeply for you. She felt your pain and your happiness and she shared it with you， whether you realized it or not.

2. She wanted that last piece of pie. But when she saw you look at it with those big eyes and lick your mouth with that tiny tongue， she couldn't eat it. She knew it would make her much happier to see your little tummy be filled than hers.

3. She was always afraid. From the moment you were conceived1）， she did all in her power to protect you. She became your mama bear2）. She was that lady who wanted to say no when the little girl next door asked to hold you， and who cringed3）when she did， because in her mind no one could keep you as safe as she herself could. Her heart skipped two beats with your first steps. She stayed up late to make sure you got home safe， and woke up early to see you off to school. With every stubbed4） toe and little stumble5）， she was close by； she was ready to snatch6） you up with every bad dream or late night fever. She was there to make sure you were OK.

4. She knows she's not perfect. She is her own worst critic. She knows all her flaws and sometimes hates herself for them. She is hardest on herself when it comes to you， though. She wanted to be the perfect mom， to do nothing wrong—but because she is human， she made mistakes. She is probably still trying to forgive herself for them. She wishes with her whole heart that she could go back in time and do things differently， but she can't， so be kind to her， and know she did the best she knew how to do.

5. She watched you as you slept. There were nights when she was up 'til 3：00 a.m. praying that you would finally fall asleep. She could hardly keep her eyes open as she sang to you， and she would beg you to "please， please fall asleep." Then， when you finally fell asleep， she would lay you down and all her tiredness would disappear for a short second as she sat by your bedside looking down at your perfect cherub7） face， experiencing more love than she knew was possible， despite her worn-out arms and aching eyes.

6. She carried you a lot longer than nine months. You needed her to. So she did. She would learn to hold you while she cleaned； she would learn to hold you while she ate； she would even hold you while she slept， because it was the only way she could sometimes. Her arms would get tired， her back would hurt， but she held you still because you wanted to be close to her. She snuggled8 you， loved you， kissed you and played with you. You felt safe in her arms； you were happy in her arms； you knew you were loved in her arms， so she held you， as often and as long as you needed.

7. It broke her heart every time you cried. There was no sound as sad as your cries， or sight as horrible as the tears streaming down your perfect face. She did all in her power to stop you from crying， and when she couldn't stop your tears， her heart would shatter9） into a million little pieces.

8. She put you first. She went without food， without showers and without sleep. She always put your needs before her own. She would spend all day meeting your needs， and by the end of the day， she would have no energy left for herself. But the next day， she would wake up and do it all over again， because you meant that much to her.

9. She would do it all again. Being a mom is one of the hardest jobs anyone can do， and it will take you to your very limits sometimes. You cry， you hurt， you try， you fail， you work and you learn. But， you also experience more joy that you thought was possible and feel more love than your heart can contain. Despite all the pain， grief， late nights and early mornings you put your mom through， she would do it all again for you because you are worth it to her. So， next time you see her， tell your mom thank you； let her know that you love her. She can never hear it too many times.

你也许一直都知道，妈妈很爱你。可你却不记得，你小的时候她怎样爱你。因为关于你小时候那些满含母爱的小小细节，妈妈从未告诉过你。

1. 你没少让她哭过。发现怀孕的时候，她哭了。把你生出来的时候，她哭了。第一次把你抱在怀里的时候，她哭了。她因为幸福而哭泣。她因为担惊受怕而哭泣。她因为提心吊胆而哭泣。她因为对你怀有深厚的感情而哭泣。她体会着你的痛苦和快乐，并对此感同身受，无论你是否能意识到这一点。

2. 她想吃最后那块馅饼。但是看到你用那双大眼睛望着馅饼、小舌头还舔着嘴唇的样子，她就不忍心吃了。她很清楚，看到你小肚子饱饱的样子比她自己吃饱更让她开心。

3. 她总是忧心忡忡。从怀上你的那一刻起，她就竭盡所能地去保护你。她变成了护崽的熊妈妈。她成了这样的女人：当隔壁的小女孩想抱你的时候，她会想拒绝；当那个小女孩抱起你的时候，她会感到惴惴不安。因为在她心里，没有人能像她自己一样保证你的安全。你刚开始学步时，她的心脏漏跳了几拍。她熬到深夜等你安全到家，早早醒来好送你出门上学。每当你不小心磕到脚趾或有些许磕绊，她总是在你身边。她总是时刻准备着把你从每一个可怕梦魇或午夜的高烧中解救出来。她就在那里守卫着，确保你一切都好。

4. 她知道自己并不完美。她对自己极度严苛。她知道自己所有的缺点，有时还会因此而讨厌自己。不过，当涉及你的时候，她对自己最为严苛。过去的她想做个完美的妈妈，想从不犯错——可她是常人，也曾犯错。她如今可能仍在努力去原谅自己犯过的那些错。她全心全意地希望可以回到过去换种做法，但是她无能为力。所以对她宽容一些，要知道她那时已经在自己的能力范围内做到最好了。

5. 她会端详你熟睡的样子。很多个夜晚，她会熬夜到凌晨三点，祈祷你最终可以安然入睡。她在唱摇篮曲的时候几乎困得无法睁眼，她会乞求你：“拜托，拜托快睡吧。”然而，当你终于熟睡，她会把你放下来，坐在你身边，看着你无瑕的天使般的小脸，那时她会感到所有的疲倦暂时一扫而光，只体会着从未想过会有的爱意，尽管那时候自己已经双臂疲惫、两眼酸痛。

6. 她把你抱在怀里可远不止九个月。你需要她抱着你，她就抱着你。她会学着在打扫卫生的时候抱着你；她会学着在吃饭的时候抱着你；她甚至会在睡觉的时候也抱着你，因为有时这是她唯一能做的方式。她的手臂会疲惫不堪，她的后背会疼痛难忍，但她抱着你一动不动，只因你想贴在她身边。她紧紧地抱着你，深爱着你，亲吻着你，还陪你玩耍。你在她的臂弯里感到安全；你在她的臂弯里体会快乐；你知道自己在她的臂弯里被疼爱着。所以她抱着你，无论何时，无论多久，如你所需。

7. 你每次哭泣都令她心碎。世界上没有任何声音会比你的哭声更令她难过，也没有任何景象比你无瑕小脸上划过泪水更令她害怕。她竭尽所能地哄你停止哭泣，当她无法帮你止住眼泪的时候，她的心会碎成千百万片。

8. 她处处以你为先。她可以不吃饭，不洗澡，不睡觉。她总是把你的需求放在自己的前面。她会花一整天的时间去满足你的要求，晚上的时候，她已没有精力留给自己。但是第二天，她会在醒来之后再次重复前一天的事情，因为你对她尤为重要。

9. 她会反复做上述所有事情。对任何人来说，当妈妈都是最艰难的工作之一，有时，它会让你挑战极限。你哭泣、你伤心、你尝试、你失败、你努力，你学习。但是，你也体会着超乎想象的快乐，感受着满溢于心的爱意。尽管你让妈妈经受了所有这些痛苦、悲伤、熬夜和早起，她仍然愿意为你一再重复，因为你值得她如此对待。所以，下次见面的时候，记得对你的妈妈表示感谢，让她知道你爱她。她对这句话百听不厌。