我期待一种冒险

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"I'm practicing French now. I want to move to Europe so I can force myself to start over①. I have a nine-to-six job. It's a good position. They pay me well. I love my team.But everything just feels so familiar. There's no discomfort or uncertainty anymore. On weekends I go to the same neighborhood bar. I eat at the same restaurants that I know are good. I take interesting vacations, but even those tend to follow a regular pattern. As much as I tell myself that I'm being adventurous②when I hike in Peru—it's a very planned risk. I think a new city will be good for me. I'll start out alone. I'll be forced to re fl ect. I'll have a sense of unexpectedness③. I want to feel like a tourist in my own life again.

我正在练习法语。我想搬到欧洲去，这样就可以迫使自己重新开始。我有一份朝九晚六的工作，职位很好，待遇也不错。我爱我的团队，但感觉一切都太过熟悉了，没了任何不适或不确定的因素。周末我会去附近的同一个酒吧，在同样的、我认为不错的餐馆吃饭。我也会享受有趣的假期，但即便是假期，我也觉得都是循规蹈矩。尽管在秘鲁旅行时我告诉自己我在冒险——那却依然是一场很有计划的冒险。我觉得去一个新的城市对我来说会好一些，我会独自出发，会被迫思考，会有一种出乎意料的感觉。我希望在自己的生命中再次体会到游客的感觉。

① start over 重新开始

② adventurous 英 [əd'ventʃ(ə)rəs] 美 [əd'vɛntʃərəs]adj. 爱冒险的；大胆的；充满危险的

③ unexpectedness [,ʌnɪk'spɛktɪdnɪs] n. 出乎意料，突然